The Heart Wants What the Heart Wants and My Heart Is A Needy Motherfucker

Ugg....
That pretty much sums up my so called love life. Cept, it ain't really love cuz there is no such thing as love in high school. Sure, Degrassi has taught me through the years that you can be sooooo in love but something like divorce/pregnancy/abortion/evil twin/stabbing/death/really hard math test/only 122 Facebook friends can totally ruin it but never fear! In only two episodes you hormonal Canadians will be porking once again.

But then...Reality bitch slaps for thinking that life is a giant hormonal Canadian sex sandwhich.

I'm not like hugely insane about anyone right now. There are a few here in there that stick out to me more than others but I am at the point now where I'm sick of looking for one. When is someone gonna be looking for me huh? I'm just as good as that skanky mcslutlsut you be digging and I don't have STDs (Bonus!) But alas, I am in that pergutory of love known as the FRIENDZONE.

Don't get me wrong, I love my guy friends. They're hysterical and chronic doosh bags and enjoy my rants about the importance of appreciating latex condoms because "Back in my day!..." etc. etc. They're awesome. Period.

BUT! there's always a but...

There are moments, with 2 in particular, where my heart suddenly goes "Ya know? He's pretty great..."

Me: Yea he's mah bestie

Vagina: Can we fuck him?

Me: No Pooter! He's like my brother.

Heart: No...YOU'RE like a sister TO HIM.....You liiiiiike him...

Me: No i do not! We are just friends!

Vagina: But..but..I WANT I WANT!

Me: Shut up Pooter!

Heart: You can't deny me. I kinda always know what you're feeling

Me: I am not listening to this

Heart: Explain to me then why everytime he brings "her" up, you get all tense and defensive

Me: I'M NOT GETTING DEFENSIVE!

Vagina: WANT PENIS!!!

Me: SHUT UP!

Heart: Answer the question Ginger.

Me: I don't know....It...It just drives me crazy that he wants to be with her and would be so great to her and she's completely blind to how fantastic he is. And if they do get together, what happens to me? Am I just gonna stand on the sidelines while he tells her everything, everything he used ot tell me? Is she going to ya know, replace me? And and and what if she hurts him? God I'd kill her. A great guy like him only comes once and if she blows this I!...I'll....I don't know what i'll do but it wont be pretty! I just...I want him to be happy...And I wanna be part of that happiness....

Vag:......

Heart:.....You like him....

Me:....

Brain: Hey, you need to pee like right now.

Me: Thanks!

END SCENE

Let it be known that that conversation happens at least daily, normally more than once. And him? I am no where on his or his mind. No matter what I say or do or how I try to be, I'm just not. And for whatever reason, I can't stand that


BEING A GIRL SUCKS

A Poem for Those Who Bleh

Another goodbye
Another blatant "no"
A new reason to cry
To simply let go

My Wednesday might as well be Monday

Having the rope cut
When you're close to the top
Reaching out for your hand
As you walk on, no stop

My Wednesday might as well be Monday

It could be worse
Than this I suppose
But let me be selfish
Cuz right now it blows

My Wednesday might as well be Monday

I'll wallow and mope
But just for today
The morning is gonna be here soon
Now time for a new day

My Wednesday might have been a Monday
But Thursday is just a sunrise away

The Current State of the Union

IN:
Meatball Subs
Pokemon (Duh)
Meeting cute boys in Psychology =]

OUT:
The New Looney Toons (I mean seriously, what the hell?)
Parents who just don't understand (yes, i know there is a flamingo in my car, his name is Paulo and he deserves you respect old man)
Growing up :(
and...
Having to be UNBIASED in my opposing viewpoints for AP English

In case you haven't caught on, I'm kinda really sorta super opinionated. So when Mama Brown, my AP English teacher, assigned an essay for this week where we must objectively present both sides of an issue. So, not too bad, just pick something i'm not opinionated about. Just one problem...
I'M OPINIONATED ABOUT EVERYTHING

It doesn't matter about how big or little or uncovered a topic is, I've got something to say about it. Can I always support what I have to say? NO. But I sure as hell have something to say.

I have chosen my topic as the controversial and adolescent topid of: SEX EDUCATION
Let me just answer your questions: No, i'm not a child molester, yes i am serious and no i'm not psychotically religious. I just think that we as teens are a little sick and tired of having abstinence constantly shoved down our throat. What if I don't get married huh? Die a virgin? Yea...not happening. Instead of constantly telling us what we  can't do, why not tell us something we can do? We're people too ya know. We have a right to do with our bodies what we please but a little guidance would be nice. Well...
Mom is yelling again. Better go study/attempt to memorize my lines for tomorrow

A Hormonal Train Wreck Waiting to Happen,
Ginger

A Little 10 Things About Me

1. I have red hair...obvi.
2. My favorite color is evergreen.
3. I have two younger siblings who are..well...different in their own ways.
4. My group of friends is so fantastic you can like us on Facebook and no...I'm not kidding.
5. I LOVE DOGS. Except mine...he's a gross chihuahua/sewer rat combination who is both stupid and stinky.
6. My body and I don't really get along. It likes to be all chock full of sicknesses that I can't just nap away
7. I was supposed to be born in 1970 because I BELONG in the 80's.
8. I'm an actress. I want to go to Ball State University and major in Theatre with a specialty in Theater Education. I want to work in a performing arts school in New York.
9.I LOVE Pokemon. You don't even know or understand. I don't care what you say I AM a Pokemon Master.
10. I believe in music the way some people believe in fairytales. It flows through me just like blood. It is my essence. It is Me.

First Official Post

Well here we go. My first official post. I'm not sure what's gonna happen with all this but considering I'm in my senior year of high school and headed to college next year, my life is bound to be full of adventure :) So here we go, it's not the first chapter of my life but sure is a nice start.
Thanks for stopping by
Ginger :)